as you may have noticed I had been a little bit down lately
now I am fine
but some of the people I know made certain comments
which includes "ah, you are just bored, find a job and you will be fine"
I guess my constant whining for a month about my uncertainty in everything annoyed them
I had been living in Finland for almost two years
I had people there who I liked and respected a lot
I had my own places I loved visiting
I had my own routine of the things I do
I miss that all
it was my choice to leave
but it does not erase all the feelings I have
I miss those people and things and I always will be
I needed time to rearrange to my new reality
and I certainly needed some understanding and mental tapping on my shoulder
something like "you will be fine, you just need a little time"
not "just get a job"
it kinda confuses me
I am always that super smiling, super positive person with short periods of time, when I am angry
this time I had been down for more than a month
for once in my life
I guess I need to give myself that mental tapping on the shoulder that I needed
no matter for how long you listen to people complain about their lives
the moment you need to be supported
end up alone with your problems
"just get a job"
my motto now is : shut up and smile
people need you only when you smile