I am watching Girls tv show and let's face it
it is very
in the last episode I heard one extremely interesting life coaching advice
something like: every morning after you wake up think: what would I do today to make myself happy?
I never thought about that
I know, that I am emotional trash can
if some of my friends have some problem they throw it into me
it is good sometimes to feel, that you can help people
but lately I realized I am tired of that
people complain and then are angry if I do not share their opinion
or if I say: you complain too much
all that crap happens: oh, okay, if you don't want to hear about it, then I will talk only about interesting things to you
you know what?
after that we don't talk for about a week or so
my record was half a year
and not with one person, no, apparently it is a girl's thing
I do that too sometimes (when I don't get what I expected to get, I switch on silent treatment)
but they rarely ask: and how are you doing, Jana?
I have a lot of shit going on in my head
and sometimes I do want to spill it out
but I won't
I am fighting my own battles and even though I need some help
I am perfectly fine :)
since I got tired of pleasuring other people I took that advice very seriously
What would I do today to make MYSELF happy?
such an easy question
such a variety of possible answers
I should had gone into "me-me-me" mode a long time ago
firstly I will make myself happy, and only if I have some time left, I will make you happier
not the other way around
what would YOU do today to make yourself happier?